What Healing Feels Like

When I started on my nutritional balancing program, I didn't know what health and wellness felt like. Before my symptoms improved, I often wondered if they would get better, and what it would feel like. I was not one of the clients who noticed immediate results. My body felt tighter and generally better, but my most concerning symptoms were persistent. My mind began to get busy. Are my symptoms even correctable? Would I suddenly know that I was feeling better? What if this was as good as it gets? Today, I want to share about my first breakthrough to encourage you to keep on the program and be patient. By being on the program, you can be confident that you are doing what is best for your body and that your body is healing itself. Your first or next health breakthrough could be tonight, but it could also be a few months away. Your body is handling the most serious issues first, even if they don't present outward symptoms. 

During the first months of my program, it had been so long since I had a day where I wasn't controlled by my health concerns that I didn't know what health felt like. My symptoms were always festering in the back of my mind, coloring my plans for the day and my interactions with those around me. Specifically, my motion sickness made me dread every outing that involved driving and any future plane trips, even if they were months away. All of that changed suddenly and unexpectedly in March. We had planned a road trip with the whole family with a few nights each in Charlottesville, DC, Annapolis and Richmond. As the week approached, I began doing the usual probing of my mind for travel-related anxiety. I kept asking myself how I was feeling and whether I was starting to spin up yet. To my surprise, each time I asked, I had a sense of calm. I figured it was just too far out and that the anxiety would come. It wasn't until we were 3 hours down the road, halfway to Charlottesville, that I turned to my husband and said "I'm healed."

The entire trip was a dream for our family. My husband drove most of the way, something he relishes. I SAT FOR HOURS AT A TIME just watching out the window, something I hadn't done since my first baby was born over 5 years ago. My motion sickness was gone. I could turn around and help the kids, nav in busy DC traffic, and chat pleasantly with my husband. When I write in my bio page that I look forward to adventuring with my family again, I mean that I found life-changing healing from a baffling chronic disorder in less than a year on a Nutritional Balancing diet and supplement protocol. Shortly after this first major breakthrough, I began to add in the detoxification protocols (coffee enemas and sauna therapy) which have pushed me into further emotional and physical healing.

The thing about Nutritional Balancing is that it just works. It requires tremendous patience, but the rewards are nothing short of awesome. I still have significant healing to do, but when I start to get down about my relative pace of healing or the road ahead, I remind myself that big things are coming. I continue to do my program each day, guard to my attitudes and intentions, and expect health in my life. 

Bullet Journaling and Habit Tracking

About 6 months into my nutritional balancing program, I learned about bullet journaling. If you aren't familiar with the idea, “the bullet journal is a customizable and forgiving organization system. It can be your to-do list, sketchbook, notebook, and diary, but most likely, it will be all of the above.” I found the concept of journal/to-do list/tracker highly appealing as I have little scraps of paper with to-do lists scattered throughout the house, on my phone and one my computer. Most were started and then abandoned because of the scope. I also have at least five journals started and abandoned. I use my journals to vent or to capture a fleeting memory of my daughter as she rapidly grew before my eyes, but I don't take time to journal everyday. Inevitably the journal feels outdated when I pick it up again, so I start anew with a fresh journal only to repeat the pattern. The idea of a notebook where I could capture moments, thoughts and events simply while at the same time keeping track of the things I needed to get done on a daily basis was incredibly appealing. It would become a one stop shop for organizing my life.

I used it religiously for about a month and then off and on over the next few months. When I used it, I drank more water, did the sauna more often and spent more quiet mornings to myself. Having something beautiful and functional made me feel more organized and freed my mind from having to remember all those little to do items. Also, while raising my two daughters as a solo parent due to my husband's work travel and focusing on my own healing, sometimes looking down at that to-do list and being able to check one thing off made me feel like I achieved something tangible that day. I learned to write down accomplishable tasks, rather than going nuclear on every to do list. I didn't write down the bathroom remodel that will maybe happen in 3 years. I instead put down “buy dog food”...much more achievable and certainly necessary if I want my 10 pound terrier to live. While there is a place for that bathroom remodel in the journal, it doesn't need to be taking up my daily mental energy.

My biggest take away from the bullet journal was the daily habit tracker. It is simple, aesthetically pleasing and impactful. When it comes time for a retest, your practitioner will ask you how you've been doing in the major areas of your program (diet, water, sleep, sauna, coffee enemas, etc.). Having a daily tracker gives you instant and honest feedback on how often you do each part. While the truth may be embarrassing, giving your practitioner an accurate picture of your daily habits will help them advise and support you. I find it motivates me to stick closely to the program so I can fill in the day’s squares and circles. I'm like a toddler with a sticker chart.

My tracker is simple and appealing. It allows me to quickly keep track of what I've done for the day. Click on it to download it for your personal use.